Confusing

Some agencies (mine included) have been directly told by someone at CCAA that the referrals will come out next week and people can still travel. Two other agencies have been told no referrals or traveling will happen for another 20-30 days when they will then reevaluate the situation. All the agencies are reliable, so I can only presume that they are all talking to different people at the CCAA and are getting conflicting stories. Which then tells me that they haven't made a decision of what to do about Swine flu yet.
All I know is after more than three years I thought I'd see my baby's face this week or early next and now it's a very real possibility that I won't. This sucks.

bad news

It is rumored and has been confirmed by a couple of agencies that China is not sending referrals at this time due to the swine flu outbreak.

Since there is no news, I thought I'd tell a story of how I met one of my neighbors. We had just moved into the house and it was a nice sunny day. We didn't have our fence up yet, and we had the door to the garage open and the door from the garage to the kitchen open. Graham had the dogs on a walk and I was going to go to the bathroom really fast before I started working in the yard. All of a sudden I heard the familiar sound of a dog head banging into a closed door. The door to the bathroom hadn't latched and in walked a big black lab. We don't own a big black lab. So I said "Well, hello there." Then from outside I heard someone calling "Pepper! Pepper!" So I looked at him again and said "Well, hello Pepper." then he turned and wanted me to scratch his butt.
So I finished up and took Pepper back outside and found the lady who was calling for him. She said "Oh my gosh, did he just walk into your house? I'm so embarrassed!" When I told her he didn't just walk into the house but also visited me while I was going to the bathroom she just about died of embarrassment. But I just thought it was funny.
Pepper passed away, but now they have Max who comes over to our yard for playdates. He's also a big black lab. I'm expecting him to walk in while I'm taking a bath anytime now.

Nothing new

We're hoping to hear something this week or early next week (but I'm really hoping this week). The Swine Flu has me a little nervous, but hopefully it'll be contained by the time we need to travel. I'll post here if I hear anything!
:)

There are now two agencies saying that they think the cut off will be March 14, 2006. That means March 10th would be in and we'd get matched. Now that it's the weekend we won't hear anymore until Monday. Ugh, this weekend is going to take forever.

There has been a rumor that China has started matching. They could be matching us with our daughter right now!! I'm getting a little woozy thinking about it!

Welcome to my block

No news. No rumors. But I'll write here as soon as I hear something.
Oh, my mom asked me the other day if I had a "block"?
I said "A block?"
"Ya, you know, that thing you can write on?"
"Mom, what are you talking about??"
"You know, on the computer?"
"Oh, a blog? "
"Ya ya, a blog."
"Nope, don't have one of those."

( I will, however, refer to this as my "block" from now on because it makes me giggle every time I say it)

(And don't think I'm being mean, my mom and I talk about three times a week. She is updated on my life! And she doesn't even have a computer. And she'd bug my aunt to read it to her over the phone then call me and ask questions for an hour afterwards. No, she doesn't need to know about my block.)

On one of our many trips to Fred Meyers yesterday Graham was looking at some shirts. I asked him if he needed new clothes and he said "No, I just thought I'd look for some cool tops for our trip to China. I don't think I have anything for such a hot climate" This is probably the first time he has acknowledged in my presences that he is actually thinking about the adoption. He's been so laissez-faire for the past three years, it's weird to hear him talk like it's actually going to happen.

So the plan was always I was going to try and work half time and stay home with the baby the other part of the day when we got back from China. We were all in agreement, however my school district didn't get the memo and won't let me go half time. Apparently it's too hard to fill a Deaf Ed. position so I had to stay there instead of going to a part time sped job. So I was very stressed and upset. Then Graham finds out that another science teacher in his highschool is having a baby and wants to job share (job shares are OK with the district). This means Graham could go half time and stay home with Mia. Except I was suppose to stay home with Mia. But that's not going to happen. And honestly as along as one of is home with her I will feel so much better. However the one staying home has only held a baby once before. At a picnic. About 15 years ago. He also won't pick up the dog poop in the backyard because it grosses him out. This should be interesting.
Oh, and he doesn't get to be all BFF with my BFF (Hi Anna) just because she'll be home with her baby to. He can call her with questions or advice, but the second they start going out to get pedicures together I'm going to get pissed.

Alright, I'm back

I had a bit of a meltdown this weekend. I guess not getting matched in the last batch hit me way harder than I thought. I actually wanted to pull our paperwork and quit the adoption. That would show China for jerking me around. FOR OVER THREE YEARS .
But my friends and family rode out my hysteria and I have come back to only mildly insane. And I actually felt a little tiny glimmer of excitement. It only lasted about 10 seconds, but at least it was there.
So, since we should know something in about three weeks I'll keep blogging. All they have to match is 2 days and we'll be in. Of coarse I saw a rumor yesterday where they might just match one day, but I'm choosing to ignore that.

This month is going to be crazy because of work and life. I probably wouldn't check this blog for a couple of weeks.

I'm trying to decide if I should get an iPhone. Neither Graham or I have ever owned a cell phone before. We just switched providers for our cordless and apparently we got new features. I was talking to someone and I heard a beep beep and I totally panicked! I pushed the "talk" button and hung up on everyone. I told myself I wasn't going to get a cell phone until I'd mastered the phone in my house.
But another teacher at work has one and it's so cool! My friend (Hi Anna!) has an iTouch and said if I'm going to get something it should be the iPhone (did I get that right or did I just put words into your mouth?)
See, I thought I could take it to China with us and use the Internet. And if Graham gets one too then we can call each other and text and stuff!
We could get rid of our land line and just use our cell phones!! Woo Hoo, we'd be living in the year 2009!!
Next we should look into getting broadcast television!
And maybe stop churning our own butter!

Bad news. We weren't in this batch. It's a 99.9% chance we'll be matched next time. Either the end of April or the very beginning May.